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How much am I going to HAVE to love this god who is burning many of my relatives in hell who never heard about him? I love my relatives but my burning with them can't help them now, and I'm SO SCARED of burning forever...I hate god. I hatehimihatehimIhatehimIhatehim. He is a MONSTER. But I've only said that because He also looks at the heart, so I might as well be honest. But I'm
T~~~R~~~Y~~~I~~~N~~~G to love him.
How much trying is enough? After I try real hard to love and worship him and walk the spirit for several days--will he mind if in my exhasution I take a little break? OOOOOOhhhhhh---
Sin...delicious...delectable...sin. IS it too much sin to spend l-o-n-g hours in the bathtub, dreaming, as long as you don't go out and actually DO stuff? How about just a few beers to "mellow out"? Not to get DRUNK, of course not! That would cause me to miss the rupture! (Rapture?)
HALP!
Charlie (Before 1996 when God showed me his committed love to draw ALL men to Himself)